mambo jambo

its been a while since i wrote anything here. a lot has happened since then but i cant help but realized that i have not moved much, i mean, i dont feel like i’ve reached a goal or something that i can strike of the list. anyway, my third year of university is over and there’s only one more year before i start making another important life decision. i had a final year project meeting this morning but after that meeting, i cant help but feel like i did not learn anything from the past three years. i still feel lost and my mind went blank. it feels…stupid in a way, but thats how its always been i think. i keep telling myself that i need to do something about it, but what? 

anyway, that is one thought of my mind. i had this strange thought on the way home. i was thinking that if someone was to shadow me for a day, he/she wouldnt last a day because i think he/she would probably give up from all the silence and boredom. but then i also think that it would take someone special to actually go through the day with me. oh wells, until that day comes, i think im pretty fine with the way things are. 

something happened the other day at starbucks. a girl actually flirted with me. and for a while it felt like ‘hey, this is not so bad after all.’ but then something struck me like as if someone just slapped me from the back just telling me to quit it and not fall to my old ways. i think if im not careful, i might just fall for another pretty face without giving it any thought. no, i hope it doesnt happen again. 

i registered for this level 1 coaching course at the academy that i am currently coaching in. its a in-house coaching program where experienced coaches conduct the sessions and impart their knowledge about coaching kids the fundamentals of soccer. the first coach was lionel lewis. he’s a top man in my opinion, not arrogant and just very easy going. he does not hold back his knowledge and he tries to teach us however he can. i must say, i would like to coach young goalkeepers with him one day. today, we had another coach from hong kong, raymond. he has a lot of coaching experience you can actually see that its his way of life. he has an awesome football sense in my opinion, although some of the course participants could not understand what he was saying and just mumbling under their breath. im looking forward to learning from him in the next two nights, because i think there’s a lot that i do not know about soccer. if only i was exposed to this kind of knowledge when i was young, i think i would be a more competent footballer. so yeaaa, that’s all about coaching for now. 

i dont think this blog post has any coherence to it. its all mambo jambo i think. its bad i think, because i cant seem to organise my thoughts well. 

im currently reading a book entitled, “Gang Leader for a Day” by Sudhir Venkatesh. It’s an entertaining book i think. the author is actually a sociologist writing his dissertation about the gang community in chicago, like how they live in the projects and their own economic system. he actually gets permission to follow the gang in their daily workings and he became a gang leader for a day. good read i think, almost finishing it. 

i have a stack of books waiting to be read. in the order that i want to read them:

1. The Facebook Effect by David Kirkpatrick

2. Physics of the Future by Michio Kaku

3. Beyond Band of Brothers by Major Dick Winters

4. Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen

5. The Book Thief by Markus Zusak

6. The Upside of Irrationality by Dan Ariely

7. The Hunger Games Trilogy by Suzanne Collins

8. War and Peace by Leo Tolstoy

9. The Prince by Niccolo Machiavelli

10. Bossypants by Tina Fey

So yea, thats a lot of books and i think that will last me for a year. good enough considering the amount of time i spend reading and my reading rate. 

and oh finally, i find myself counting down the days till my friend comes back from her half a year long exchange. im looking forward to some thought provoking and emotion filled conversations. :)

till the next time, cheerios.